Daily Log: It’s Been A Year Madey…

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It’s been a year since you left us…forever…and it seemed like yesterday…the pain in my heart…the tears of missing you. The realization that I would never see you…again…or hear your gentle voice calling me Nene…ever again. 

Will it be like this? When sadness overtook all reasons…and I will feel the pain of losing you…of longing to be with you…even just for a while.

Will the tears stop falling? Will the pain go away and be replaced with just a dull ache? Will the longing fade away? Will I stop missing you? In time???

One thing is sure...July...my birth month...will always be bittersweet. It's the time of year that "God took you home"...the same time I was born...through you from God.

One of my favorite pictures of you. Taken during our trip to Hundred Islands, Alaminos, Pangasinan last December 22, 2013

I missed you so much Madey. And much as I want to remember your smile and the warmth of your love...but the pain won't go away.

You may also read:

• Farewell, Dearest Mother
• Remembering Mother A Day Before My Birthday
• Dearest Inay...I Remember You

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Daily Log: One Thing At A Time. A Plan For 2015

One thing at a time.

One mountain to climb.

One problem to face

One debt to erase.

One habit to break.

One risk to take.

One dream to fulfill

One part of God's will.

One more chance to make right

One more reason to fight.

For when it's all done

You are the one

Who will stand tall and say.

"I did it my way!"

One thing at a time.

~ by Bob Perks

Sunrise at Sabang Beach, Baler, Aurora. Taken last January 02, 2015

I was born and raised in the province. And I remember, during my younger years, I have my New Year's resolutions...sometimes written but oftentimes, not. Every year. But as always the case, it remained just that...resolutions...plans. 

On the last few days of classes, most of my classmates would talked about their resolutions. I have to have one, too. But there's no accountability, not even to myself. Resolutions or what we call it now as "goal settings" was never really discussed during class.

It was one of those things that someone need to have during New Year. Just like the ever famous Philippine tradition that was passed from generation to generation "of jumping at the stroke of midnight during New Year's Eve so we could be taller".

The problem with resolutions...it's too general.

So, here I am. For this year...no "childhood" resolutions but focusing on things "one at a time".

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Daniz is Turning Nine

It seems only yesterday when “Papa God” blessed Jonjie and I with the “most precious gift ever”…our daughter, Shemaella Daniz. And she will be 9 years old tomorrow.

Our baby is turning a into a little lady. And I can’t help but think…time flies…so fast.

She is the reason why we are a family. She gives us immense joy and happiness. She is the child of our hearts.

We have waited and prayed for her for seven years, and it was worth the wait. And we will forever be grateful…thus, we named her Shemaella.

Inspires gratitude and thanksgiving, a big YES...love life to its fullest measure, multiple YES...fill our hearts and mind with serenity, hmmmnnn...

Last night, when I entered our room, father and daughter are sleeping side by side. Just like the old days, when she was a baby and she love sleeping close to her father. It brought back fond memories…

Taken October 08, 2014. Please take note of Daniz head and hand and Daday's hand and then look at the picture below...

Taken April 29, 2006 when she was 6 months old

As parents, we have our ‘ups‘ and ‘downs’.

We want her to have the things that we do not have as a child. On the other hand, we want her to learn to appreciate and be thankful for the things that she has…the difference between needs and wants.

We often questioned ourselves if we are doing the right thing with her. Are we too strict? Or do we easily give in to her whims? Are we patient enough to understand her?

But amidst all the questions and uncertainties, there is one thing that is constant and certain. That we love her so much and we will always be here no matter what.

While browsing the net about poems and quotes for Daughters, this caught my attention as it aptly describes Daniz and our feelings for her.

An Angel Left Her Wings

© Tina M. Marascia, Published: Feb 2006

I have this little angel. For me she left her wings.
She has no idea how much happiness she truly brings.
She brightens up my days with her smiles and her laughs.
She helps me to remember all the blessings that I have.

Her face, it is so perfect, she's sweet and soft and pure.
Sometimes she can be willful and sometimes she is demure.
She tries her very hardest to please and do what's right.
She gives the greatest hugs from morning until night.

Every person that has known her sees this light within her soul
I know that in this whole great world, she has a special role.
She's helpful and considerate to everyone she knows
This light in her shines brighter as my angel grows.

When she sees someone is sad, it opens up her heart.
She wants to do all that she can; she wants to do her part.
She'll squeeze away the sorrow and make me forget about my pain.
She shows me where the sun is when we're hiding from the rain.

I know that God must love me, He showed me with His Grace
I knew just how completely when I saw my angel's face.
And in that very moment when she came into my world,
I knew that she was so much more than just my baby girl.

She would be my sunshine, with a sweetness that won't end.
And when she grows up one day she would be my closest friend.
She would be the reason I would always try my best.
For my little angel baby girl would be my greatest test.

When God entrusts to you an angel, who has left her wings for you.
Encircle her with love with everything you do.
Let her know God made her, and that He trusts you with her care.
Be sure to make time for special moments with her to share.

And when at night she finally says her prayers and goes to sleep
I Thank Him for my angel, and ask for him to always keep
A watchful eye and hand to protect her from this world.
Protect my little angel; protect my baby girl.

Source: http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/an-angel-left-her-wings#ixzz3FfBY4xbO
Family Friend Poems 

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Daily Log: “I Wish You Enough” by Bob Perks

The first time I read it was January 11, 2002 as part of the day's inspirational message from Friends Reflections sent via email...Author Unknown. But the words remain with me until this day...

It was in early 2006 when I happened to stumble upon a website, "I believe in you!" Stories by Bob Perks that I finally knew the author behind the poem. 

For days now, I have been trying to share this...searching for the right words. But there is none...

Sunset at Brgy. Urbiztondo, San Juan, La Union. Taken last October 04, 2014

I Wish You Enough! ©2001 

By Bob Perks

"I wish you enough sun

to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain

to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness 

to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain

so that the smallest joys in life

appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain

to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss

to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough "Hellos"

to get you through the final "Goodbye."

To fully appreciate the poem, please read the full story here.

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Our Love Story: 15 Years and Counting

As a newbie in the company

You became my instant enemy

You’re so arrogant, noisy and loud

So full of yourself and so proud

All along, that’s what I thought

 

And then one day out of the blue

We talked, shared our thoughts

And in just a short span of time

I see a different side of you

Contemplative, thoughtful, true

For one whole week afterwards

Getting to know each other, we did

We spent much time, talking, sharing

Enjoying, laughing and even crying

Together…discovering, exploring

I knew and I saw the sign clearly

I still doubted if we’re meant to be

‘Coz of our differences, you and me

Your way of life and my insecurities

But then again…so what

And even before the week ends

There’s no denying even to myself

That you really are meant for me

Mama Mary’s answer to my prayers

And so, I let it be…

 

We built our house, made it a home

Struggled to make a life of our own

We made mistakes along the way

But we braved everything together

To have our “happy ever after”

On our seventh year of togetherness

God had granted our fervent prayers

A precious gift was sent from above

An adorable little angel we love so much

Ever since, a complete family we become

We named her Shemaella Daniz

Precious and beloved child of our hearts

Our source of pride,  joy and happiness

And we will be grateful, for always

To the One above, for His loving grace

 

One week into getting to know stage

One month of being in a relationship

With God’s infinite love and grace

And Mama Mary’s eternal blessing

We are in our 15 years and counting!

Please also read:

• Our Love Story: Isang Linggong Pag-Ibig Version 1999
• Our Love Story: Meeting The Parents, The Sabenianos
• Our Love Story: The Civil Wedding
• Our Love Story: Ang Aming Muling Pagtanggap ng Basbas ng Kasal

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Hello September!

Taken at 7:33 this morning along the stretch of Gil Puyat Ave inside Clark Freeport Zone

September first 

Bring joyous cheers

And a warm welcome from everyone

As it officially starts the “ber” months

September, October, November

And the most awaited month of the year

December...

Looking at the clear morning sky

With a silent prayer in my heart

Not only for today 

But for the rest of the year

That the days ahead 

May bring more gladness

Not just for me but for those

Who needed it the most

Today is the first day of the month

The first day of the week

With a straight road ahead

And a clear blue sky above

Hoping and praying, it is a sign

That we are off to a good start

September...please be good to us!

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Farewell, Dearest Mother

NORBERTA SALEN SABENIANO
June 06, 1941 ~ July 11, 2014

How do we let go of someone so special and constant in our lives?

How do we accept your passing and let God take you into His bosom?

Is it possible to celebrate your life, despite the pains and loneliness

And the void that you left behind?

Who will listen to our stories, comfort us when we are feeling down?

Who will be there to heal us or pray for us when we are sick?

Who will come travelling when there is a new addition to the family?

Who will answer us when we call Inay, Nay, Nanay, Madey?

Oh Mother, we will miss you so much

Your ever present radiant smile that melts even the hardest heart

Your strong faith and belief in God and in the power of prayers

That everything, as bad as it may seem, will turn out right in the end

But we will be strong for we know that we are loved

That each of us, your seven children and eleven grand children

Have been blessed with your devotion, loyalty and thoughtfulness

That we have better lives and bright future because of you

Thank you very much, dearest Inay

For letting us spread our wings and soar high to reach our dreams

For encouraging us to go on when all we ever wanted was to give up

For the words of wisdom that guided us through journey’s end

Thank you for living a full life

For doing what you must do, as a farmer’s wife and a mother to us

For doing what you wanted as an individual, as a woman, as a citizen

For your legacy as barangay councilor and servant of the church

Go Inay…fly to heaven’s high

Our Lord and Creator is waiting to welcome you in His loving arms

Though you’re not with us but your love and memories will remain

To give us strength and to keep our family together as one

Know that we loved you with all our hearts

We cherish you and we will remember you with your radiant smile

Look down on us from time to time and send us your sweet kisses

Through the gentle wind or the soft falling rain

Farewell, dearest Mother

Difficult and painful it may be, but we know that in God's perfect time

We will be able to celebrate your life...a well-lived life

We love you so much. God speed!

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Happy Father's Day, Daday!

You have been a father for just 8 years

But it's like you've been doing it forever

Yes, Daniz is so blessed to have you as her father

No one could do it better than you are doing it now

I clearly remember the first time we saw her

I have waited for the twinkling eyes

And the brightest smile amidst the tears

But for you...it was love at first sight

Without reservation

You have chosen to be a full-time Daday

And set aside your needs and wants

So one of us will always be there for her

No one could love her more

Understand her needs

Guide her to be the best that she can be

No one...but you.

She was our gift from God

The child of our hearts

But you are her greatest blessing

Her forever Super DADAY.

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